The true gospel of Jesus is not exactly written clearly in the books (bible) anymore.  Granted the story of Jesus coming to Earth, 1/2 man 1/2 God born of a virgin we have all heard over and over even unto redundancy on Youtube.  People share this by compulsion & by fear feeling obligation.

The Gospel of Jesus Are the Shoes that One Walks In

Jesus is The Son of God I believe these stories as Truth.  But I was not there was I?  No.  Neither has God shown me beyond a shadow of a doubt that the stories are His.

The True gospel of Jesus comes from THE HEART by experience of those who know Him first hand.  It comes from the hearts of His children who are/were changed drastically as a result of seeking Jesus diligently.  One on one.  By seeking Jesus He reveals Himself to us.

By receiving prayer at alter call The Holy Spirit is given unto men.

By praise and worship we meet God in Spirit.  For He dwells in the praises of His people.

By ongoing and heart felt prayer we get to know Jesus by the eternal gift of Hope.  We wait for His deliverance with magical Hope. We wait for His coming with eternal Faith.

Hope & Faith are eternal spiritual gifts.  Without them we have no armor.  The many are already leaving the “Hope” out of their Helmet of the Hope of Salvation”.  They trade Hope eternal for a book that they see as a certificate of salvation.  They say the bible is their god and their authority.  They see the bible as their ticket into eternity.  So God put the books in the hands of the wolf to see who these are—“His sheep know His voice and will not follow another”.

The 144 Share What they See with Those Who Believe

Not all have been believers long enough to have been trained as 144.  This is a life long molding of the clay.  Be not dismayed if you are not trained in warfare.  It was a very tumultuous road that few have walked down.  It included death, deep deep falls into sin, trauma, abuse, deliverance, healing, lessons of Grace and teachings that only come by PAIN.  Eventually they were shown the beast close up.  Not all are those who go before the throne.  Not all are the woman of Rev. 12 who became the warrior/child.

Those who know the voice of Jesus in this way, know the wolf speaks blasphemy from the Holy place NOW.  The desecration & abomination are upon us times-2.  When we see the abomination of desecration that causes desolation standing in the holy place x2 know that the time of the end is upon us.

Why do they see when others don’t?

When the locust from the pit came upon them in the night (some time in 2020-2021) they were already trained by God’s Grace and by practice to slaughter it.  They see into the dark realms.  The locust is vile but it is also better to think of it as a seemingly painless vail over the minds of the many Christians.  We think in some ways it may be protecting the many from seeing what they may not be able to emotionally handle.  Those who think they are 144 who have not already been seasoned in warfare may be deceived.  Christians often speak on YT of things to come that are already upon them unknowingly.  Its very hard for the 144 to watch blind men.  But this too is our training we must let it go.  Not all are the eyes.

Not all see the spiritual signs. We think they may have to endure unto the end. We know Christians see the carnal end times signs.  Yet those, the direct breathren of Jesus (133, 144) are watching His prophecy come to pass in technicolor.  

I will share with you what Jesus showed me.  By my Testimony in short.

I was a total mess all my young life.  In every way I was disconnected from both God and from myself.  I was lost to follow any wind that blew.  The winds took me to very dark places.  I died.   I had no self worth.  I was in bondage to drug addiction.  My pain was ongoing.  MY sins were many.

I prayed and prayed and prayed.  God delivered me and filled me with His Holy Spirit by the laying on of hands and prayer.  I spent a year in joy unspeakable.  Until I again fell into addiction.   My shame was great.  I prayed and prayed.  I sought out God nevertheless in my prodigal walk.  He taught me what Grace really is.  He pulled me out and cleaned me up.  I had lessons to be learned by my fall from God’s will.

The Man Child

For seven years God taught me who I am.  He also taught me why I was the way I was.  Every debauchery every searching by sin was to dull the pain of my separation from God.  Even in sin I sought out God.  When I met Jesus He empowered me to take authority over demonic darkness.  He showed me also I must rely rely rely on Him.  And still take authority by Him.

Revelation 12

This is the key.  To be a child and a warrior in one.  And that these two personalities don’t contradict one from another.

We are both the woman who the beast tried to destroy and we are the man-child.  The woman is the intercessors who pray by The Holy Spirit.  They were burdened with travail of lamentation and supplication.  For years they prayed not even knowing at times what they were asking God for.  Such is the burden of the intercessor.  Not all are the mouth piece.  They do not seek glory nor do other see their work.  If they share their calling they are mocked by those who are incapable of understanding the gifts of the Holy Spirt.  They are called “witches” because they do see into the realm of The Spirit.  These are the woman of Revelation 12.

The Good News of The Gospel of Peace

Feet shod with the Good news of the Gospel of Peace.  Why is this Gospel of Truth called shoes?

The Pearl Inside the Clay Pot is The Spirit of God

Because until one has walked the walk of Faith and found Jesus and walked by the Way of Jesus one cannot share the true gospel…expect by the copy paste version in the bibles.  If the only gospel we have is from a book we are not seeking God wholeheartedly.  Truth and transparency sometimes must come by desperation.  This is my experience.  Without pain I would have not sought God out with my whole heart.  Hence–the reason for the Great Tribulation is so men will seek God in Truth and finally be saved.  By showing  God our whole heart He in turn heals our whole heart.  He washes it clean.  He made us imperfect for a reason.  We need Him.  Without Him & without Jesus mankind is barren.  The pearl inside the clay pot is the Spirit of God.

The 33.33% Soul, 33.33% Body, & 33.3% Spirit.  Without the Spirit we are only 66.6%.  When the Holy Spirit comes we are 99.999999%.

Being born again starts the transformation by God’s leading.  All men have the divine presence of God given in the womb.  It is The Spirit of Life itself.  In my experience receiving The Holy Spirit Baptism is no small thing.  It is not a non event written in the text of the book that nobody notices when it happens.  It isn’t the born again experience either. Though being born again must I think precede the Baptism of The Holy Spirit.   Being born again is to be washed in God’s words and to finally start to seek Jesus.  The Spirit of God that brings spiritual gifts unto men including tongues & prophecy varies from man to man.  I cannot judge to whom or how it comes.  Perhaps to some it is a non event.  Except I do see that some are sealed on the forehead, others have the mark of the beast and some have both.  For they  must decide between the two.  The man cannot serve two God’s.

Sheep Are The Children of God by Analogy

Let’s call us “children” instead of animals.  After all, I resent when the beast calls us cattle.  “heard immunity, heard mentality, etc.”

Jesus Repeated the phrase “feed my sheep” to the apostles in the gospels when they questioned, “what is Thy will?”

EMOTIONAL TRAUMA & INDOCTRINATION OF A YOUTH

In kindergarten my mother would not let me dress up with the other children for Halloween.   Every class went from school room to school room showing off their costumes.  My teacher put me at the very last of the line, me walking through every room being different.  Different than every other child in the school who was dressed up.  Well, accepting my sister of course.  I don’t know what she went through.   I know that today she absolutely hates our Mother.

Once again Mom’s ignorance of raising children and lack of consideration to put some real thought into what she was actually doing to us mounted in us more trauma by abuse.  Mom is a product of the beast system.  And Dad thinking violence is love according to the beast, gives us our regular brutal spankings.  After all if we are to choose Love then we choose a man who repeatedly hurts us.  That’s Love right? (sarcasm)

Removing us from our homes and putting us in a situation where a cold mean stranger is wielding power over us and saying things like “YOU FAILED” is highly traumatic for a five years old….you get my drift.  Or you need to stay back a year cause your stupider than the rest of the class!

Mother taught us children nothing of the world because she knew nothing of the world.  Ignorant of danger she literally threw us to the wolves.

Somewhere in there was my spending the night with a relative of Mom’s.  Resulting in the sexual abuse by the sneaky older man 3rd cousin.   The one who locked mom in the trunk when she was child.  God almighty, sometimes it seems perhaps I was one of those targeted individuals.  The dangers in my life were relentless.  I will spare you that story of sexual abuse, for now.  I nearly drowned at least twice.  Dad saved my life over and over.  I bashed my head so many times needing stitches that they investigated my parents for child abuse in the 60s.  And that takes alot public record of injury.

Chemical Attacks from my own Mom & Third Degree Burns or Second– who knows, As Dad stands Watching

I walked into a fire and sat down in it burning my whole underside at age 4.  The trauma attached to that little event left me out of my body literally. I clearly remember being on a metal table as they peeled off my skin.  The doctor with one of those horrible round lights on his head.  I had enough, I literally went into a closet out of body.  I walked away.  My own mother couldn’t stand the screaming she left the room.

To this day I don’t know why my Dad standing right on the other side of the fire would allow me to walk through gray hot ash with red embers burning underneath.  I suppose had he really wanted me dead he would not have twice saved me from drowning in the back yard pool.  I remember once when they cleaned the pool mom allowing us to swim in bleach water.  She was big on chemicals nearly burning my lungs with ammonia water.  Over and over I told her the stuff is poison when I became an adult.  Now she’s on oxygen from leaving bleach and ammonia in her sink every time she cleans and never ever opening the windows.   My parents are as blind to evil & darkness as they are to their own hearts.

Anger Toward God-Why the Suffering?

Part of being chosen of God…and keep in mind friend, flesh and blood are temporal very temporal.  The soul and spirit are eternal.   Seeing the big picture is part of being chosen.  How?  The afterlife MUST, MUST, be very real to us.  Otherwise we cannot gain the needed wisdom from God’s lessons.  Hence every chosen few has died at least once.  They have visited the afterlife, they have had out of body dreams.  They have felt eternity by receiving The Holy Spirit.  Not all are the hand or the eye.  Count yourself blessed if ye are of the great multitude because The meek WILL INHERIT THE EARTH.  And this is what the elite fight against.

The Elite Want The 144,000 Dead.

If they can’t identify the 144 they will slaughter all God’s children in anxt.

The prophecies say they will lose their power and they will.  They value power over all things.  They will not go down without a fight.  They want us all dead.  They cannot identify the elect.  So many saying “I am 144, I am 144” this is for a reason.  The waters are muddied for a reason. God shall not allow His elect to suffer by the hand of evil ever again. That is His promise to the 144,000 His army and those who go before the thrones.

Spiritual lessons that come from pain and suffering can be eternal if the reaction is in fact good and spiritual.  Being mad at God is part of the chosen’s walk. We know God is real and we are pissed at Him!  This is part of our relationships with Him being formed.  We later turn to Him showing Him our anger.  We are transparent with Him and we know without His help we’re squittled.  “Turn me and I shall be turned”.  Then to later see the benefits of suffering and the many lessons is priceless wisdom.

Again—Those clothed in white who have come out of Great tribulation who go before the throne night and day, these are God’s chosen few who He makes guardians over The New Earth.   Not “the great tribulation”.  Revelation

I WAS A FAILURE AT THIRD GRADE

Isn’t it funny, well not funny, rather ironic that my parents much later in life told me I tested out one of the top three IQ’s in my entire school’s history.  Three years later they were telling me I was a failure at that same school.  I passed with C’s because I wanted to make C’s.  The teacher was pissed and hated me because I was not obedient, I didn’t study, I didn’t have to try.  I could easily make C’s by simple common sense.  I would not make the A’s she wanted.  I would not act like my sister whom she loved & taught earlier years.  Mrs. Harper (and she was a harper) made this quite clear to me.   “Why aren’t you more like your sister?  She was a joy to teach, but YOU, YOUR A failure!!”

It was as if the beat down was what I was destined for.  I believed Mrs. Harper.  In my heart between the beatings from Dad and the criticism I knew I was “bad & wrong, a failure”.  I would not find out until years, many years later who I really am.  I embraced Sarah the failure. 

So, at 8 years old my parents responded to Mrs. Harpers advice to keep me back a year.  They said, “we are moving from Akron to Kent Ohio anyway so we will make Sarah repeat 3rd grade even though she passed by her grades.”  Why?  Because the bitch teacher didn’t like me and my parents were followers of the beast.  I have forgiven Mrs. Harper who by the way lost her son in Vietnam and played the “Fighting Soldiers from the sky” the Green Barret theme song every morning before class on the record player.

Some Relief from the Abuse & Public Speaking at Age 9

My second bout with third grade was much different.  Mrs. Tesar in Kent Ohio was a loving woman who encouraged and kept safe her students.  And furthermore my fourth grade teacher was much the same.  Thank God we moved away from Rhimer Elementary Hell.  Mr. Fairchild took us ice skating in his backyard river.  It was dark and cold, but oh how fun.  Once he have a public speaking assignment and I froze in front of the class.  He made it a lesson to the class saying in a kind and understanding way what can happen due to nervous fear.  I had no shortage of fear.   After all I was a failure every child in that room was better than me.  (I thought)  I was literally petrified.

I should note that I later skipped ninth grade making up the demotion of third grade.  My grades were easily good enough to do so at that time.  And tenth grade was easy for me.   in ‘Operation Upgrade’ in Hillsborough County Florida those who were old enough with the grades could skip a grade.  My friend Joanne wanted me to stay where I was not getting out of an entire year of school. She knew I would move on from her and by God I am very glad I did.

God’s Gifts Are Without Repentance.  Steeped in Sin

I was lost for years, searching for something I did not know.  When I tried drugs at age 12 my young life was so steeped in emotional pain and I was so filled up with hurt, and fear that drugs were my relief. 

Sidenote: If I was to express fear or hurt to anybody in my family I would have been either mocked by my older sister, who by the way used to beat my little brother whom I protected. I finally was able to stand her off physically at about age 7, she never attacked us again. But all my fears had to be held in. My mother and father always invalidated anything, any feeling, any fear, and emotion that I had all through life pretty much. I was trained to repress and the fear nearly ate me alive.

You see, with addiction, people who are not steeped in pain don’t get addicted.  Sure addicts like me usually say “I had no trauma in my childhood I had good parents”. I used to say it myself and mean it.  Why would I say that?  Because the TV programming showed me what trauma is and I did not relate to it.  Little did I know there is a different kind of child trauma that comes in stealth and in ignorance.  It comes from these sources, parents, education, our peers because we are trained to demoralize one another as an emotional survival skill, and the TV media.

But make no mistake, most people even into adulthood have no clue what emotional trauma really looks like.  How would they?  They didn’t teach us healthy emotions at school that’s for sure.  How do you speak to yourself?

Long story short, I was steeped in sin and misery most of my life.  I was a heroin addict, Cocaine Injector, Pot smoking, Prostitute, thief, Liar, Hopeful drug addict who not only prayed for help, I prayed in tongues for help during my relapse/prodigal walk.  For years on end.  Whaaat???

My History With Religion

I was born in 1959 making me 62 years old.  I was not raised in the church as they say.   However my mother was a Jehovah Witness and she used to speak often of the “New World”  It sounded to me like a myth at the time.  I didn’t put any stock in it.  I believed what was in front of me at the time.  Still I was a praying child from the very start of my life, and always have been.  Mom took us to church on holydays I mean holidays.

Church was no different than school to me.  Expect that there were no hard tests and bad grades given.  Today there is not one preacher who I can sit and listen to and agree with wholeheartedly.  Not on Youtube or mainstream or real life.  I can’t even agree 50% or 20%.   Sometimes they will say something true.

My foundation of religion is me reading the Bible on my own back from late 80s through late 90s.  I had all the books when they were “books”.  I had the Strong’s Exhaustive Concordance.  I had Lexicons, interlinear bible’s, every version in English and I read mainly the KJV and I read the Old Testament in the NIV & KJV.

Persecution from the Pulpit

I had one church and one pasture in life who I called my own at age thirty something.  When my loving preacher changed and started preaching Hell fire and condemnation rather than teaching with Love, the church split.  One pasture one way, and mine another way.  I learned so much from Him.  I don’t know what happened to him but I see no benefit to giving people the beat down over and over and over.

I am not saying don’t prepare for eternity and be aware that ye shall be judged for our treatment of others.  But condemnation from the pulpit repeatedly teaches mankind nothing but guilt and shame.  Of which I was already filled to the brim.  When I left that church, me and my tithes, that preacher for the first time spoke to me directly after years of being in his churches fairly unnoticed.

“They will kill you out there Sarah”, was his words to me. Well he was nearly right.  He was afraid.  He wanted me back I believe because of the tithes.  He never gave a shit about any of us it seems to me.  Or maybe he did, but he sure as hell could have at least acknowledge the women’s ministry me and another member had at that time to strippers and prostitutes’.

My Ministry to Strippers & Prostitutes

There were three of us woman born again in the church.  Women who really knew what it is to be changed by God Himself.  Born again.  Looking back I think perhaps my old preacher feared us, he did not understand or relate to us.

Seems to me there are variation of being born again.   And after we were born again God sent us out.    We witnessed to the dancers and hookers who needed to hear of God’s Love.  Those whom the preacher was unable to reach.  Once my girlfriend Lori asked the pastor to recognize our ministry as part of the church ministry.  He abruptly refused.  It wasn’t pretty enough.  It wasn’t dressed right.  It wasn’t packaged the way he would have it-apparently. Yes were were raw. But it was amazing times. We would walk into the dressing rooms at the strip clubs and there would sit one young woman or another primed for ministering, falling apart at the seems. This happened continually in that ministry. God moved more for those women than I have ever seen in ministry.

Threatened by My Friend in Ministry at Knife Point

I was even in choir.  Lori’s the other ex drug addict who I brought into the strip clubs with me to minister.  Oh she was so sweet.  She made up little baskets of jelly beans and chocolates on Easter for the dancers.  The strippers loved her!  She would minister to them individually and speak of how God saved & delivered her from hell life.  My stripper ministry was very very productive.   It was my first ministry.  When I relapsed into drug addiction it took years before I finally got pulled back out by God.

I received the Holy Spirit when I was thirty in a little Baptist church by the laying on of hands & prayer.  In my experience that’s how it happens.  So the automatic part of the infilling that happens when you ask Jesus in for help by desperation was my born again moment.  I was born again when I was 27.

At 27 my morality changed and I never returned into the deep sexual immorality that I came out of at that time. Even during my prodigal walk my morals remained upgraded.

Nevertheless my prodigal walk taught me not to judge others.  I forget that lesson from time to time.  Perhaps I am more stubborn than some.

I walked as prodigal for probably ten years with The Holy Spirit. God’s gifts are with repentance. If He didn’t take the Spirit back from me He won’t take it back. I think you would have to ask God to leave or something horrible like that.  I got arrested spent 60 days in county and finally ran, not walked to Alcoholics Anonymous where I finally-thank God! I became reprogrammed by God using therapy and the 12 steps.  It took seven years to change my thought patterns and neural pathways of my mind.  Meditation was a big part of that change by positive affirmations and daily 12 step meetings.  I learned how to express myself. How to quit keeping shame secrets of fear.  Say what I mean and mean what I say.

I built confidence by telling my testimony to hundreds at a time at speaker meetings.  I worked through those old childhood fears of public speaking & inferiority.  I realized I am a valuable and somewhat vulnerable child of God.  I do not speak to my self the way I used to-ever.

My worst sin was the way I treated myself for so long.  Some say people cannot change.  But given the right circumstances we can reprogram while God changes our heart.  To be the clay in His hands is worth every pain and cry.  But it takes work.  Change isn’t easy, we fear it sometimes.  It takes God and footwork both.  The work a man does to change who he is should become a way of life.  When any problem arises we say—“Out of the problem into the solution”.

The Truth Gospel

The true gospel is sharing what Jesus did for you.  Because that is the gospel that comes from the heart and is Truth and alive.

How in the hell does somebody attain a strippers ministry you might ask.  Well long story short–God provides it.  I was a stripper.  I was a prostitute drug addict.  God delivered me.  See my 5 part testimony.  I spent years living up to the title of “failure” who I believed I was for years.  I was a stripper for years.  After I was born again God put me behind a sewing machine making outfits for strippers.  This is still my work today except now I do it online.  No more setting up outfits in the dressing rooms.  The managers all knew me.  I had a foot in at strip clubs from Austin to San Antonio.  They knew I was now born again and they knew why I quit dancing.  I was a witness.  So I was allowed to bring Lori into the clubs with me.

Lori’s husband stood next to me in choir because I was an alto.  Staying on the right pitch with three harmonies Tenor, alto, soprano isn’t easy when your not a natural at it.  We had to be grouped together.  I was able to follow her husband’s voice.  Once his family at church invited me to dinner after.  My friend Lori was out sick that day.  Next thing I knew the crazy bitch was threatening me at knife point, knife point!  About stealing her husband because I met him and his family at an after church lunch.  There went that portion of that ministry.

Can you imagine?  A girl well over age 27 knocks on my door and puts a knife to my throat because I know and went to lunch with her in-laws.  She was sure I wanted to steal her husband.   No wonder the preacher didn’t want her representing the church in ministry.  She was bat shit crazy.  Her husband said “she has returned to her old behavior”.  What was she a murderer?  Well seems I have somebody else to forgive in word so my heart will follow.

Does this incident mean Lori wasn’t born again?  NO!  Make no mistake she became the clay in God’s hands just as I did.  It takes years to reprogram after being born again.  God changes our heart and our mind.  But old habits die hard, that’s why the 12 step recovery programs are so beneficial for born again believers.  They can become part of the reprogramming of behaviors.  Especially for drug addicts who need years to relearn and build new neuropathways in the brain.  There is a thing called the prodigal son walk.  If your a born again believer who has back slid horribly do not underestimate the lessons of Grace and Love, mercy, and forbearance of God that comes with a prodigal son walk.

The scariest scripture in the Bible I fulfilled

Paraphrased.   If a man is delivered of demons and is born again of The Spirit of God and yet returns as a dog to his vomit to his old ways then those demons look and say “his house is clean and swept & the door is open for the taking” that demon brings 6 other demons back with him to the house it once was vanquished from.  Put on the full armor of God.

I do not think the re-infestation of demons happened to me but I am a candidate because of my prodigal walk.  Testimony 5 parts Youtube.

Nevertheless God brought me back out after years of my turning my back on Him and His gracious gifts to me.

My Ministry to The Very Wicked The Prodigal Walk Ministry

One day perhaps I will go over the worst of the worst that I can remember.  A time filled with crooked cops, bribes, immorality, danger, insanity, great suffering, regret, remorse, self induced trauma, sick relationships, abusive boyfriends, The jumping from moving vehicles to get away from assailants. rape, more near death experience, kidnapping.   The giving of a testimony to the most evil on earth that nearly results in decapitation.  Men of evil don’t listen to preachers and nuns whom they have no part with.  But when a fellow sinner they know tells them God is real & loves them and what he did for them, it hits them right between the eyes. And they do not always react well toward that witness.

Perhaps God wanted me to know what having a sword to my neck for the testimony of Him would feel like.  Idk.  But this dangerous & insane man who announced to the who camp I was staying at that he would take my head that night changed his mind and heart.  He had every intention of doing so and I was going to allow it without even running.  Had I run he may have enjoyed it.  Something stopped his hand. It wasn’t me.  I wasn’t to die that day, not again. Not yet.  Some day I might write the horrors of the prodigal walk but for now it’s not to be.

God Gave Me a Third Ministry in Alcoholics Anonymous

As I said I spent years in AA reprogramming and gaining self worth.  I learned how to build self esteem and I learned my character defect patterns with the purpose of not repeating them.  Not everyone in AA takes rehabilitation so seriously as I did.  Nor do they take God as seriously as I do.   My own sister, a dysfunctional drug addict had all the same opportunities I did.  Yet she just could never change.  She couldn’t open up her heart, her true heart to God.  She never really opened the door to let God in.  I could be wrong.

I was rebuilt in AA and I left AA because from it I got what I needed.  I am not under AA rule to need the program for the rest of my days as so many in AA claim.  Some even call AA or ‘The Program’ their own Higher Power.  Big mistake.  The 12 step programs are full of lies at every turn.  They are also full of truth at many turns.   The program is free.  I owe AA nothing.

They chant “You have to give it away to keep it” this is true to a point, but for how long?  How long do I have to give it away?  I get to mark that timeline with my own choice.  If you don’t do the 12 step work you will not gain the self worth needed to be reprogrammed.  But if you think that its AA whom you are beholden to instead of God Himself then ye worship the creation over The Creator.  God is my sustenance not man.

A Scribe of God My Third Ministry

Jazweeh and I are the authors of my scribe ministry.  I did not plan to write a testimony but that’ s where this article ended up.  This is my end of days ministry.  Every footstep in my life has been for this moment in time.  I am not to judge others.  There is a whole multitude of Christians right now who have no clue of what is going on.  I can’t make anyone see Truth.  The creature/locust is on the heads and minds of most.  The supernatural is full bore on Earth.  Yet the strongholds of Satan are collapsing day by day.  God’s army is raised up and they are powerful.  Those who were once oppressed and down trodden are now the most skilled spiritual warriors on Earth.

They have come out of great tribulation.  Those who are born again do not usually stand up and tell the worst parts of their demonic walk through hell.  I left out the worst parts of the self inflicted part of my dangerous life.

Deliverance from demons is part of the walk with God.  Those who know what it’s like to be subservient to a demonic force of actions within that goes against their own heart know suffering.

“Why do I do that which I do not want to do?  Each time I make up my mind to do good evil is right there with me.  I then act according to evil in me that is not of me.   Who shall deliver me from this body of death? Praise be to Jesus The Christ who is all merciful forever and ever.”   Apostle Paul —Paraphrased from Pre Mandela effect skewed bible changes.

The Justified shall live by Faith

The chosen of God have already died once quite literally.   Or more.  They have stood under the knife, and under the sword at the neck.  God’s elect suffered so they could learn and be formed.  God’s elect would not trade that suffering for anything because it brought them to the knowledge of God’s great Love for us.

He who The Son sets free is free indeed. 

For easier reading and directions on becoming the clay in God’s hands go to my website https://paradiseforthehellbound.com where both my testimony and my book can be seen and read free.

Some Christians are expecting to be raptured before any great tribulation problems occur.  My question is this…if they/we are not raptured along with the young children will we be so pissed we curse God?  Or will we seek God even more fervently and sustain Hope for whatever His will is for us.  That is the wisdom.  “Thy will be done in my life”.  This isn’t easy to pray sometimes.

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No, we are not saved by the right works & works alone.  Granted you could say everything is works even prayer and a relationship with God are works.  But by works I mean “good deeds”.  It is our Faith and our condition of the heart toward God & man that God looks upon in us.  Our status in the realm of The Spirit after death however, depends on the works we have carried out while vulnerable, naive, weak, and human.  Courageous righteous acts carry alot of weight like giving your life so another can live.  Do we not reap what we sow?

All are given a measure of Faith, what you do with the measure will either kill faith off or make it blossom and grow into great courageous Faith.  ALL are given the down payment of faith yet people are as different as night and day in what they choose to do with that Faith.  Free will will not be taken from us at least in this life.  Hell won’t have much freedom going on.  If a man worships law, rules, regulations, and wants a contract with God stating his salvation in red blood print…that man may fit in better where free will doesn’t exist.

In The Spirit there is freedom from bondage.  Some people feel safer in bondage because of programming. They need little boxes with labels on them for comfort when The Holy Spirit is the Comforter…”saved by grace”, “saved by blood”, “saved by the bible”, “saved by the priest/preacher”, “saved by the words of the preacher”, “forgiven in the future”, “I never killed anybody”, “they are bad & I am good because look what they do”.  And on and on go the rationales to quell the fear of death go.

Blood is symbolic it is what Jesus did in death that freed us.  What?  Is there power in blood?  The Satanists seems to think so.  What did Jesus do in death?  A little thing that seems everyone on Youtube has forgotten or never learned.  “HE TOOK THE KEYS OF DEATH AND HELL FROM SATAN HIMSELF”.

That is why Jesus had to die to free us from SIN, DEATH, & the BONDAGE OF LAW.  And THAT is why we have power over death and hell because Jesus gives us the keys when we accept His gift for us.  This is the plan of Father. He sent His Son to do this.  Did Jesus bear all my sin?  Well that’s what they say but if He did then why is it I have to repent?  Why do I still feel guilt and shame when I do wrong against my own heart?  I question that, just saying its a contradiction.  Since the book lies (bible) we must have The Holy Spirit who comes in Jesus name and follow our still and quiet voice of the heart.

If we become reprobate due to smashing our own hearts voice over and over and over then we need deliverance by the laying on of hands as they practice in Pentecostal churches and full gospel churches.

Follow your heart and protect your heart for out of it come the well springs of life.  If you commit apostacy against your own heart it will make you sick.  God has given in us a guide that the beast works hard to silence.

The greatest spiritual and everlasting gifts are Love, Faith, & Hope these three are eternal, everlasting.  Pray for these if you pray.  Tongues will soon cease, prophecies will soon end but Love carries on into eternity.  Selfless Love is not a feeling though feelings do prompt the actions of Love.

Love is giving, charitable, kind, honest, forthright, and trustworthy, Love never fails.  There are many ways to give, even a word can be giving & charitable.

You will notice some people are incapable of a kind or encouraging word toward even their children.  They are under a spell of fear, their words of Love are bound up in a jagged bobbed wire fence wrapped around their own freedom to express Love toward others.  What are they afraid of?  Why can they not give a kind word?  Perhaps they are brainwashed to think kindness is weak and putrid.  Sad.

Please…don’t tell me you love me. “I love you” is a manipulation, not always, usually.  If a man says “I love you” its likely because he wants to create a reaction or its a manipulation to get what he wants or thinks he needs.  People who make Youtube videos and say “I love you” at the end, I greatly question as being un-authentic.  How can a man love people he has never known or seen?

Charity is Akin to Love

Love is straight from the heart.  But sometimes we give out of spiritual obligation.  There is nothing wrong with that.  But we mustn’t be ruled by our guilt. Its very important to work a thorough step four and five by writing down all fears and giving them to God, confessing them and asking Him to remove them.  And to write all guilt and shame down, process it emotionally with tears or screams, let it out.  Lest it rule your health and your heart. Everyone should work the 12 steps, everyone.  Without it you may not see the dysfunctional patterns of emotional behaviors that can so easily beset us.  We MUST know our patterns of knee jerk emotional reactions of blame, projection, fear of people, inability to trust God and so on.  We must examine ourselves at length and we need a road map of exercises to do so.  The 12 steps done with prayer and help from God can aid in the saving of one’s soul by finally seeing Truth and then seeking God in Truth with no walls of fear hindering prayer.

Self Awareness Vs. Self Deception

Processing the past emotional trauma can relieve panic attacks, anxiety, dysfunctional relationships, and all kinds of blame and rage.  The 12 steps promote humility and Truth and cut through false pride by the sharp sword of courageous Truth.  Take now the courage to know yourself, for this, my friend is the challenge of every man.  Not so you can condemn yourself as in past times of guilt and shame.  But rather we look deep within our own hearts and habits so we can change.  Check out my book “Paradise for the Hellbound” for more on this self knowledge.

Have you given your life that others may live? Have you stood for the down trodden and destitute?  Do you give to the beggar on the street?  How do you treat others?  Do you treat your neighbor as you want to be treated?

Of course we all have fallen short of these statutes of brotherly Love, of course.  We have forgiveness through Jesus our advocate, our redeemer, our deliverer, our healer, Him who opens the eyes of the blind, He who my soul Loves.

Works

Although we are not saved by works persay, still it is by our words and actions that we can achieve a wealth of gifts from God The Father that we carry into our next world.

Father wishes to impart upon mankind many spiritual gifts even mighty powers.  However with much power comes much responsibility.  If a man due to his choices & actions toward himself and others is not trust worthy or honorable then God cannot trust that man with great power.

Love (for humans) is an Action

By Love and conscientious view points of humility, truth, respect, and fair interactions with men does a man gain God’s trust.  How will Our Maker bestow upon us gifts of power if we cannot bridle our own tongue & behavior toward others?

Again great power in the hands of humans can be disastrous.  But the power God bestows in us now will often times be carried with us into our after life.

If a man is trust-worthy with a little he can then be trusted with alot.  Also to him whom much is given much is expected.  And that doesn’t mean pay back.  We cannot begin to pay God back, it is folly to think so.  For God’s gifts do not have stings attached as men’s do.   Nor can any action of ours compare to God’s might.   “Much is expected” means that we who have gifts are expected to use them honorably and not neglect them.

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List of Spiritual Gifts

What gifts?  Spiritual gifts are many varied powers that carnal man doesn’t understand.  Spiritual gifts involve abilities that are said to be impossible for humans.   Seers, Prophets, healers, intercessors of prayer gifts, gifts of languages, gifts of wisdom, knowledge, insight into certain topics, life giving gifts such as reanimation of the human body by the laying on of hands & prayer, dreams & visions, teachers, helpers, readers meaning those who read tea leaves, abstract shapes, eyes, foreheads, clouds, vibes, oras, there are new end times gifts at play now.  Gifts to see the supernatural mark of the beast on the foreheads of men(mankind).  Gifts of seeing gifts in others.  To see God’s mark on men.  To see Satan’s mark on men.  The ability to see into a man’s heart & soul, trips to hell, the grave, heaven, out of body experiences.  Communications gifts to hear what is in the mind of a man or to see it in his eyes or to read what he is thinking, to read faces, to see a black mouth and know a liar, telekinesis, telekinetics, every “tele” type gift listed by man.

Gifts are not evil just as guns are not evil in and of themselves.  It is how we use them that makes them evil, good, or indifferent.

Regardless of old testament condemnation of gifts being demonic, and granted some gifts are demonic.  However be not quick to judge a man by his gifts in that way.  Lest ye attribute the things of The Holy Spirit to Satan, God forbid.  Is there really an unforgivable sin?  Let’s hope not.  Did Saphira, and her husband really drop dead due to blasphemy of The Holy Spirit?  Or even worse did Peter or Paul or whoever it was REALLY have The Holy Spirit slaughter them for not giving certain monies?

I CALL BULLSHIT!  That’s not my God speaking that greed.  That is clearly a greed scripture to the manipulation of those in the church who fear that they would what?????? “ROB GOD”.  As if God wants the beasts money.

Know this…if you want to give, give to a real person who is in real need.  If you want to tithe go ahead, but not out  of guilt of some corrupt scripture of lies.  Or for a prosperity effect though, I have done that myself in hopes of a return. Do it for Love, to help.  Most pastors today are blind as ….the lost.  I would not give to any church at this point.  Give to the guy with the sign on the corner he is in need.  Give to those who ask.  Give when you can, and when you feel led.  Do not allow the fake script to manipulate you by guilt.  We cannot buy our way out of hell or punishment.  The Truth sets us free when we show God our whole heart, all of it.

Guns Are Not Evil

However they are used for evil.  And can be used for protecting the innocent from tyrannical forces as well.

Know this…gifts are usually from God however they can be used for both evil and good.  Granted, Satan has his bestowing of gifts as well.  But most likely they are the same range of gifts just used for evil instead of good.

Free-will is a gift that will not be revoked.  Satanists speak in tongues just as the intercessor (the woman of Rev. 12) does.  God appoints scribes.  One scribe type gift for example is this…During my writing while led by The Holy Spirit I strategically place a word in a sentence knowing the point I want to make yet searching for a word to fit.  I put a word in place that I DO NOT know the definition of.  I have heard the word but never bothered to know what it meant.   I look it up and it is the exact word the sentence required.

This supernatural event during writing has happened to me many times, many times.  I do not question it anymore and should not take it for granted.  God gives me the words and I learn as I go.  And of course scribes receive motivation to write and are given their topics usually at night while they sleep.  Scribes are naturals when it comes to writing and grab ideas from the air around them as well as receiving scrolls of knowledge during sleep.

Scribes of God have a romance with words and side with Truth, they Love the English language.  I reek with anxt when I see what is happening to our language and Bibles.  Men are getting the download of new heinous terminologies.  There are literally hundreds of new words in my own KJVB hard copy that I have NEVER HEARD OF yet have always been there according to history.  Yes the Mandela Effect, yes most people say “same as it ever was” as they call us who see changes as being under the strong delusion.

However there is one no two very good proofs that we are not the one’s who are deluded.  One- We are the minority.  And Two the changes in and of themselves are evil, debaucherous, and the works of a very dark voice.  Therefore we who see changes are not blind to evil.  Nor are we under the impression that its a good thing to term that which is evil as if it were good.

And so the fulfillment of the prophecy (and I paraphrase) “In the last days that which is evil shall be called good and that which is good shall be considered evil.”

Our Language is Under Attack

The language is being corrupted daily.  Our English language is under attack horribly.  In one day I watch You-tube as Christians all get the downloads of new word terms that are corrupt.   In one day they all parrot a new, same word.  It uncanny to watch.  A for instance?  “Nonsensical”,  ‘Holy Spirit” given in a sentence with a “The” no introductory announcement term…the “The” was in and for honor as a presentation of The Holy Spirit.

After a while people copy cat the terms so you don’t know who is downloaded by emf and who is just parroting terms as a status quo.  Those with low self worth parrot and speak as others do.  They copy because they fear they are bad and wrong and cannot be original or show their true heart lest people hate them (they fear).  This is what they have been taught by the beast all their lives. That what is in their heart and mind is bad and wrong.  IF you have read my articles you know that’s my pet-peave.  Forgive my repetition.

Scribes & Mandela Effect

Perhaps I see the on going supernatural changes to language and books (Mandela effect) because of the scribe gifts that are in me. I see the multitude of KJVB changes so clearly even as EYA the most proliferate scholar on Youtube of the on-going KJV Bible changes & the debauchery wrapped up in them.  Perhaps if not for the gift of scribe I too would be under the strong delusion as so many youtubers are.  Idnk.

I like to think that I see the changes to language and the holy bible because of the armor of God and other reasons regarding the Love of Truth that I see the KJVB changes when so few see.  Nevertheless they call us who see as being under the strong delusion, but we are the minority.

Anyone with a spiritual gift knows what its like to be alone.  Very few if any will relate to your gift.  NO one can understand your gift.  The best that your friends can do is say “we believe you but we do not understand it (or) that is YOUR truth”.  They are incapable of relating to your spiritual gifts and that is to be alone in some ways.

I suffer by my sight, the sufferings of Christ are to be surrounded by the blind and people who choose the lie over Truth.  To want so badly to make knowledge of Truth known to them but

“Fools, say I, do not know
Silence, like a cancer, grows
Hear my words that I might teach you
Take my arms that I might reach you”
But my words, like silent raindrops fell
And echoed in the wells, of silence

God’s chosen, His elect are the few.  But fear not for there will be a great multitude delivered out of the great tribulation.  Many many will repent and be saved during the disasters.  When the G.T. comes eyes WILL be opened people’s minds WILL be reached.

We Judge Not the Blind.  For those who are blind, to choose Truth over the lie Would be to Seemingly Lose Everything

Though the reasoning itself is to choose to believe the beast system at large for the sake of convenience & comfort.  Furthermore the Truth of the beast system is very scary.  So the lies sooth the blind masses.   While the beast poisons their mind, body, and soul in every way it can the victims of relentless abuse beg for more and serve the beast’s image.  What is the image of the beast?  I used to think its the TV and mind you in a big way the TV is the beast’s image.  However its more than just the TV.  The image of the beast is its reputation, its ora, its contra in the minds and heart of men.  The image of the beast is its overall presence in our world by tech, by programming, by ideals…and those who prefer the lie choose to respect, believe, praise, honor and worship the system in all its ways.  It can do not wrong in their eyes.

For to choose Truth they would gain their soul and lose their paradigm of lies that comfort them. As the bible used to read “they preferred the lie, therefore they were overtaken by a strong delusion, for they loved not the Truth”.  Jesus is Truth.  The Belt of Truth is our spiritual armor without it we could be vulnerable to serious deceptions.

Still I understand their choice of the lie.  To choose Truth often they would lose the things of this world that they hold dearly.  Example:  My doctor.  I asked him if he trusted big pharma.  He said “yes”.  Had he said no think of what he would have lost with that answer.  His world is wrapped up in the lie and he serves the beast directly.  He feeds his clients the poison the beast dolls out for profit.  For him to have said “no” to trusting big pharma would have painted him as a monster in his own eyes.  He would first have to have a way to process that emotionally  before, before, he could face it.  THIS my friend is why I promote the 12 steps.  It is a way to process hard truths by allowing yourself tears, screams, moans, guttural sounds, and a relationship with God that will reveal to you what is needed to live in Truth.

Emotional Constipation Kills

A man cannot believe that which he is unable to emotionally process.  NEVER, stifle tears, delay them if you must for a safe place but never stifle your own heart.  Let it rain until you are healed, let it rain my friend. God gave us tears for a reason and the beast has sewn in us emotional constipation. See recoveryfarmhouse.com and .net for ways to process emotions and deprogram from the beasts emotional constipation.

By desperation their hearts will finally shed its walls of emotional constipation and their minds will finally open to possibilities that they could not consider before their desperate state.

God sometimes has us step out in faith to grow and nurture our faith.  Each man is given a measure of faith, some let it fall away, others walk in it and it grows and becomes a strong active faith that moves untold mountains

But know this, soon we will see the results of our prayers and all of our work done by The inspiration of The Holy Spirit.

And the greatest is Love, but Faith, and Hope remain eternal as well.

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Due to Beast system programming its very very hard to Trust God and especially hard to see ourselves as worth children of the Most High God.