Then what is coming in the Future?

A man once told me, as I spoke of God to him, he said, “its not so much what you can get from God that matters (such as Heaven and a new body/paradise etc.) as much as what you bring to God of yourself that makes the grade.”

A light went off when he said those words to me.  What do I have to bring to the Kingdom of God?  Can I be trusted to do God’s work?  Will I hurt His children?  Will I deceive them with lies?

I share my heart with you.  I hope to God I am not mistaken.

You may not like it.  It’s not what Hollywood portrayed.  But the New Earth will be far better than we can now imagine.

The story isn’t what the preachers are saying will happen during end of days.  Yes we are in the time of the end. The New Age is upon us.  What does that mean exactly?  says the human.

I am clearer on the future than I have ever been before.  Watching so many prophecies come to pass my doubts are few.  There will be no god on a throne.

Yet the Christians scream “Jesus is Returning Soon, we shall be kings and priests ruling over everyone!”  And He is returning! Just not in the way they picture in their memories or imaginations.  Below is one of my favorite prophecy songs.  It gives a vag glimpse of what is to come.

But I will tell you now plainly what we see coming.

The biblical prophecies read that Jesus would return on the Eastern sky.  Now it reads “with a shout, and with the Arc angel & trump of God on the clouds”  What?  The cloud?  Amazon or googles clouds?

The Christians picture Jesus returning in or on a “cloud” rather than the “heavens” as it used to say biblically.  They see him returning to flesh and blood (which is not going to happen.)  They see Him sitting on a gem filled throne holding a golden scepter.  (bible kjv now reads “rod of iron” since the desecration and tower of babel.)

That’s not what the prophecies mean.  It is Jesus who is my Savior.  I know Him. He delivered and healed me on several occasions.  But what will happen is this…

The Two Suns Shall Burn

The Suns will explode.  Both of them.  Not the new white hot fake sun first, but rather the original sun that has already gone dim.  The real sun holds far more power in it than their fake sun that will “ark”.

The real sun still rises, but in the west & sets in the East.  You can see it glow behind the clouds that hide it, around sunset.

Perhaps that is why the powers that are made the new white hot sun Sooo fricking bright by overkill.  We know that grow lights grow plants.  Why?  Because they have the full spectrum of color and light.  The fake sun is nothing but a bunch of huge grow lights.

So they make the fake sun so bright that we would not see the fallen sun dim behind it.   No one would then recognize that the prophecies are fulfilled.  That God is real.  And that the sun went dim as prophecy foretold.  (not dark, dim)  The sun is turned down by 90%.  This would of freaked the whole world out. So they were ready for it apparently.   After all they stoled all the truth in prophecy and left us the desecrated bibles to decipher.

They think they are gods.  They think they saved the Earth.  But the damage their fake sun is doing to our atmosphere is devastating.  And to use their term…IT WON’T SUSTAIN LIFE.

NEWSFLASH only God Almighty appoints gods.  What would of happened has they not put up the fake sun?  In 2012 the sun migrated to maybe 15% or 17% of its yield.  It would have sustained life without the damage. But prophecy had to be fulfilled.  Man had to create their sun so as to also cause the ark of the covenant.  The great arking of the fakes sun.  This happens when an electrical system cannot contain the amps and watts running through it.  It arks.

When the sun arks it will cause the real sun to blow up.

I have seen the bulbs in the new sun.  I do not believe God put light bulbs in His real Sun.

So…the fake Sun EXPLODES in turn the first sun blows up.  All they had to do is get he magnetics correct to erect a fake sun.  They could use math for that problem.  Then they just lift up the Sun and nature does the rest.  It falls right into place by magnetics.  It circles the earth with the rest of the luminaries.

Magnets that hold up planets and easily make them spin around the earth.  You know, the stuff they do not teach us in school.  The not sees turned on the black hole sun.  And its basically killing everyone on Earth by slow fry radiation that has no place on Earth.  Burning plants.  The atmosphere CANNOT SUSTAIN THE FAKE SUN MUCH LONGER.

And NO we are not on a spinning ball.  Earth is not a baseball planet like the planets over our head.  THEY LIE LIKE HELL TO HOARD KNOWLEDGE.  The bastards don’t want us to know anything that leads to POWER.

Hell is real and it’s inside the Earth.  I have been there. 

The mistake most people make who believe all the lies in school & TV (image of the beast) is to assume that those in control think & act like they do.  Not true whatsoever.

The explosions from the arking of their sun will fry all of Earth and create the Lake of Fire.   A corona discharge event will follow filling the earth with broken/split oxygen molecules called bad ozone.  Before all the particles reunite back into pure oxygen.  Or whatever form they will take to enrich The coming New Earth.

Again, biblical prophecy used to read that God would never again destroy Earth by water.  That next He would use FIRE.  As if that is to be a relief to mankind.   Well God Almighty doesn’t make mistakes.

Why would God Almighty create mankind as a family unit that He has no part in? Of course there is a Mother God…are you kidding me?  These bastards who stoled all the Truth from the many will answer for hiding Truth.  Religion blasphemes the gods.  And religion blasphemes the Most Powerful God Almighty.  Religion is Legion the evil that Jesus abhorred.   Religion turns more people away from God than any other entity.  Can you see how that works?

Nevertheless Mother God and Father say that both their names are protected so no human can blaspheme in their name.  God is very protective over His partner.  Open your mind and heart and you will see her beauty.  The feminine is real.  Mother God is right there with Him.  The Sons and daughters too.

The hypocrisy and lies we are told makes us think all magic/spirituality is a lie.  That is their plan.  There is an entity who does not want humans to know that magic is real.  Or is magic also evil?

Remember this one rule friend of mine.  EVIL IS AS EVIL DOES.

That means if its not manifesting harm by evil its either hiding it or its not evil. Actions.  Know them by who they show you they are. Yes evil can do good and good can do evil.  Nevertheless Evil is as evil does.  If magic is real then it can be used for evil or for good.  Just like a gun. The gun is not evil.  Its the user who decides.  I fear I cannot break through your religious programming.  I fear I cannot give you eyes to see.  But I must try.

“The son of man” is not Jesus.  Jesus is The Son of God Almighty.  They do not remember.  Forgot forgot the diamonds forgot.  And now they call their god “a son of man”.  Of whom we have no part in.  They renamed Jesus calling Him by several different names.  Mainly “Joshua”.  The book of Joshua is new.  It is a desecrated mess portraying “Joshua” as an Impaler of men.  Read it.

There is no telling what their names for God actually mean.  What about the future??????

The many people will burn instantly when the two suns explode, not suffering.  The chosen few will go to the second Heaven and be transformed for their work on the New Earth. For 1,000 years the Earth will rest, transform, and grow into the New Earth.  Eden.  Earth will become Eden.  For 1,000 years many will sleep during the process.  No one could survive on Earth.  Except a few who managed to go deep enough into the Earth.  But they will regret their choices.  And the new earth will crush those who are not transformed.  All will be transformed who shall remain alive prepared for the New Earth.

God uses nature.  He doesn’t do things instantly all the time.  He says “you have need of patience”.  And for 1,000 years Israel will learn patience.  But during the burn we must be protected.  We shall be taken up and transformed to do the work God appoints us.  We choose this task. We accept this task.  He will not just throw us into the New Earth unaware.  We are Truth seekers.  Israel is what the bible refers to the chosen few as.  But its our own choices that make us who we are in God.

“We shall not all sleep but we shall ALL be changed.”

Most will either go to the lake of fire where their soul dies.  Or they will sleep for 1,000 years in stasis.  While the guardian of The New Earth walk the earth for 1,000 years.   Jesus mentioned this in passing.  He said “If its my will that Peter walk the Earth living for 1,000 years what business is it of yours?”

The scripture was always somewhat skewed in need of a decode just like the rest of it.  Jesus was only talking to one group of people. And Scottie Clarke is actually correct about his interpretation of most of Jesus’ words not being for Him.

Scottie Clarke

Granted Scottie likely came to that conclusion of much of the bible being for the body but not to the body due to the stringent rules that Jesus put on His breathren.  But Scottie, admittedly not being the breathren of Jesus himself, could not possibly understand that Grace applies to Israel just as much as it applies to the church or the body of Christ.    Israel, God’s chosen probably engaged in much deeper and darker pre and post (prodigal walk) salvation evil than the body ever considers.

Love

“He who sinneth much loveth much”..  To him whom much is forgiven much is given.  “To him that much is given much is expected.” and so on.  Don’t forget “Love covers a multitude of sin”.  That verse won’t be in Proverbs much longer.  The power and Love scriptures are fading fast.

These three are eternal.  “These three are eternal gifts from God Faith, Hope, and Love.  But the greatest is Love”.

Israel had the God hole driving them to seek God with fervor.  And that did not look pretty in the beginning of their walk.  As they walked by instinct and blind desperation.   Israel would have done anything to fix the way they felt the separation from God in their soul was torturous.  But the gift of desperation has great benefits.

1,000 Years of Sleep

So the many believers who know Jesus will sleep for 1,000 years.  As foretold.  Israel will walk the Earth for 1,000 years as guardians.  Guardians are not government.  Government is a con-tradiction to God’s Holy Principals.  No man rules over another.  No human rules over another.  The Christians with their glory seeking and “Kings & Priests” scripture shows they don’t know God very well.  Its no wonder they cannot see the miracles of the end of days.

They likely never received the Holy Spirit of God which brings supernatural gifts unto men.  Yet many are saved and all have the Divine presence of God.  As long as they do not take the mark of the beast in their temple.  And if they did they may be able to repent.  We hope.

After the 1,000 years of sleep and the Earth’s regeneration into the New Earth then the many believers will awaken to the New Way.  God’s Spirit shall be present on all of The Earth.  No tears, no loneliness, no violence, no greed, no sin.  We will never see those who went to the lake of fire.  Judgement will be 100% complete.  They face God Almighty alone before entering the lake of fire.  The many who preferred the lie and were under the influence of the Locust…well some may be saved and some not.

Grace, Mercy & The New Earth

But for those who preferred lies over Truth, their existence will be a kind of beautiful fantasy.   It will consist of the best parts of what they loved as humans.  The light will always be around them.  But they will not know of the greater mysteries of God.

Why?  Because they could not be trusted by God to reveal all to Him.  They would not stand in Truth.  So Locust vailed them during this time, now.  And they will have a vail on them in paradise.  It seems sad to us who prefer Truth at any cost.  But this is what they wanted.  And by Jesus’ mercy they were saved in spite of their love of lies.  Not all.  Not all.   Many will go to the Lake of Fire because they did not receive Jesus’ offer of pardon.

Israel goes on to change from form to form, lessons learned upgrades made.  Growth and change is what life is about.  There are those far above us who have already become overcomers.  Truth, Love, Faith, Hope (helmet of salvation), their Testimony told over and over, God’s Words, Jesus Himself/prayer/meditation, & the Breastplate of Righteousness.  Those are what helped Israel overcome.

Not perfection or the wielding of the copy paste gospel by compulsion.  Straight from the desecrated books sprinkled with Great Truth.   Copy paste gospel and the testimony of Jesus are two very different things. 

Its virtuous eternal gifts from God Himself that are what helped Israel through this phase of their development here on the old Earth.   The armor of God is far more vital than anyone realizes.  The preachers don’t know how to teach of it.

Lies of the Church & How to Apply the Armor of God

Wisdom Calls Out in the Street But is Utterly Rejected by Most

 Battle of Evermore Led Zepplin

The Queen of Light took her bow
And then she turned to go


The Prince of Peace embraced the gloom
And walked the night alone
Oh, dance in the dark of night
Sing to the morning light


The dark Lord rides in force tonight
And time will tell us all
Oh, throw down your plow and hoe
Rest not to lock your homes


Side by side, we wait the night
the darkest of them all, oh, oh

 I hear the horses' thunder down in the valley below
I'm waiting for the angels of Avalon
Waiting for the eastern glow


The apples of the valley hold the seeds of happiness
The ground is rich from tender care
Repay, do not forget, no, no


Dance in the dark of night
Sing to the morning light
The apples turn to brown and black
The tyrant's face is red


Oh, war is the common cry
Pick up your swords and fly
The sky is filled with good and bad
That mortals never know, oh


Oh, well, the night is long, the beads of time pass slow
Tired eyes on the sunrise, waiting for the eastern glow


The pain of war cannot exceed the woe of aftermath
The drums will shake the castle wall
The ring wraiths ride in black, ride on


Sing as you raise your bow (ride on)
Shoot straighter than before
No comfort has the fire at night
That lights the face so cold


Oh, dance in the dark of night
Sing to the morning light
The magic ruins are writ in gold to bring the balance back
Bring it back


At last, the sun is shining
The clouds of blue roll by
With flames from the dragon of darkness
The sunlight blinds his eyes
Ah, ooh, oh, ooh, ah


Bring it back, bring it back, bring it back, bring it back
Bring it back, bring it back, bring it back, bring it back


Oh now, oh now, oh now, oh, oh now, oh now, oh now
Bring it back, bring it back, bring it back, bring it back
Oh now, oh now, oh now, oh, oh now, oh now, oh now


Bring it, bring it, bring it, bring it, bring it
Bring it, bring it, bring it, bring it
Bring it, bring it, bring___________________________________

Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: James Patrick Page / Robert Anthony Plant
The Battle Of Evermore lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc

Sheep Are The Children of God by Analogy

Let’s call us “children” instead of animals.  After all, I resent when the beast calls us cattle.  “heard immunity, heard mentality, etc.”

Jesus Repeated the phrase “feed my sheep” to the apostles in the gospels when they questioned, “what is Thy will?”

EMOTIONAL TRAUMA & INDOCTRINATION OF A YOUTH

In kindergarten my mother would not let me dress up with the other children for Halloween.   Every class went from school room to school room showing off their costumes.  My teacher put me at the very last of the line, me walking through every room being different.  Different than every other child in the school who was dressed up.  Well, accepting my sister of course.  I don’t know what she went through.   I know that today she absolutely hates our Mother.

Once again Mom’s ignorance of raising children and lack of consideration to put some real thought into what she was actually doing to us mounted in us more trauma by abuse.  Mom is a product of the beast system.  And Dad thinking violence is love according to the beast, gives us our regular brutal spankings.  After all if we are to choose Love then we choose a man who repeatedly hurts us.  That’s Love right? (sarcasm)

Removing us from our homes and putting us in a situation where a cold mean stranger is wielding power over us and saying things like “YOU FAILED” is highly traumatic for a five years old….you get my drift.  Or you need to stay back a year cause your stupider than the rest of the class!

Mother taught us children nothing of the world because she knew nothing of the world.  Ignorant of danger she literally threw us to the wolves.

Somewhere in there was my spending the night with a relative of Mom’s.  Resulting in the sexual abuse by the sneaky older man 3rd cousin.   The one who locked mom in the trunk when she was child.  God almighty, sometimes it seems perhaps I was one of those targeted individuals.  The dangers in my life were relentless.  I will spare you that story of sexual abuse, for now.  I nearly drowned at least twice.  Dad saved my life over and over.  I bashed my head so many times needing stitches that they investigated my parents for child abuse in the 60s.  And that takes alot public record of injury.

Chemical Attacks from my own Mom & Third Degree Burns or Second– who knows, As Dad stands Watching

I walked into a fire and sat down in it burning my whole underside at age 4.  The trauma attached to that little event left me out of my body literally. I clearly remember being on a metal table as they peeled off my skin.  The doctor with one of those horrible round lights on his head.  I had enough, I literally went into a closet out of body.  I walked away.  My own mother couldn’t stand the screaming she left the room.

To this day I don’t know why my Dad standing right on the other side of the fire would allow me to walk through gray hot ash with red embers burning underneath.  I suppose had he really wanted me dead he would not have twice saved me from drowning in the back yard pool.  I remember once when they cleaned the pool mom allowing us to swim in bleach water.  She was big on chemicals nearly burning my lungs with ammonia water.  Over and over I told her the stuff is poison when I became an adult.  Now she’s on oxygen from leaving bleach and ammonia in her sink every time she cleans and never ever opening the windows.   My parents are as blind to evil & darkness as they are to their own hearts.

Anger Toward God-Why the Suffering?

Part of being chosen of God…and keep in mind friend, flesh and blood are temporal very temporal.  The soul and spirit are eternal.   Seeing the big picture is part of being chosen.  How?  The afterlife MUST, MUST, be very real to us.  Otherwise we cannot gain the needed wisdom from God’s lessons.  Hence every chosen few has died at least once.  They have visited the afterlife, they have had out of body dreams.  They have felt eternity by receiving The Holy Spirit.  Not all are the hand or the eye.  Count yourself blessed if ye are of the great multitude because The meek WILL INHERIT THE EARTH.  And this is what the elite fight against.

The Elite Want The 144,000 Dead.

If they can’t identify the 144 they will slaughter all God’s children in anxt.

The prophecies say they will lose their power and they will.  They value power over all things.  They will not go down without a fight.  They want us all dead.  They cannot identify the elect.  So many saying “I am 144, I am 144” this is for a reason.  The waters are muddied for a reason. God shall not allow His elect to suffer by the hand of evil ever again. That is His promise to the 144,000 His army and those who go before the thrones.

Spiritual lessons that come from pain and suffering can be eternal if the reaction is in fact good and spiritual.  Being mad at God is part of the chosen’s walk. We know God is real and we are pissed at Him!  This is part of our relationships with Him being formed.  We later turn to Him showing Him our anger.  We are transparent with Him and we know without His help we’re squittled.  “Turn me and I shall be turned”.  Then to later see the benefits of suffering and the many lessons is priceless wisdom.

Again—Those clothed in white who have come out of Great tribulation who go before the throne night and day, these are God’s chosen few who He makes guardians over The New Earth.   Not “the great tribulation”.  Revelation

I WAS A FAILURE AT THIRD GRADE

Isn’t it funny, well not funny, rather ironic that my parents much later in life told me I tested out one of the top three IQ’s in my entire school’s history.  Three years later they were telling me I was a failure at that same school.  I passed with C’s because I wanted to make C’s.  The teacher was pissed and hated me because I was not obedient, I didn’t study, I didn’t have to try.  I could easily make C’s by simple common sense.  I would not make the A’s she wanted.  I would not act like my sister whom she loved & taught earlier years.  Mrs. Harper (and she was a harper) made this quite clear to me.   “Why aren’t you more like your sister?  She was a joy to teach, but YOU, YOUR A failure!!”

It was as if the beat down was what I was destined for.  I believed Mrs. Harper.  In my heart between the beatings from Dad and the criticism I knew I was “bad & wrong, a failure”.  I would not find out until years, many years later who I really am.  I embraced Sarah the failure. 

So, at 8 years old my parents responded to Mrs. Harpers advice to keep me back a year.  They said, “we are moving from Akron to Kent Ohio anyway so we will make Sarah repeat 3rd grade even though she passed by her grades.”  Why?  Because the bitch teacher didn’t like me and my parents were followers of the beast.  I have forgiven Mrs. Harper who by the way lost her son in Vietnam and played the “Fighting Soldiers from the sky” the Green Barret theme song every morning before class on the record player.

Some Relief from the Abuse & Public Speaking at Age 9

My second bout with third grade was much different.  Mrs. Tesar in Kent Ohio was a loving woman who encouraged and kept safe her students.  And furthermore my fourth grade teacher was much the same.  Thank God we moved away from Rhimer Elementary Hell.  Mr. Fairchild took us ice skating in his backyard river.  It was dark and cold, but oh how fun.  Once he have a public speaking assignment and I froze in front of the class.  He made it a lesson to the class saying in a kind and understanding way what can happen due to nervous fear.  I had no shortage of fear.   After all I was a failure every child in that room was better than me.  (I thought)  I was literally petrified.

I should note that I later skipped ninth grade making up the demotion of third grade.  My grades were easily good enough to do so at that time.  And tenth grade was easy for me.   in ‘Operation Upgrade’ in Hillsborough County Florida those who were old enough with the grades could skip a grade.  My friend Joanne wanted me to stay where I was not getting out of an entire year of school. She knew I would move on from her and by God I am very glad I did.

God’s Gifts Are Without Repentance.  Steeped in Sin

I was lost for years, searching for something I did not know.  When I tried drugs at age 12 my young life was so steeped in emotional pain and I was so filled up with hurt, and fear that drugs were my relief. 

Sidenote: If I was to express fear or hurt to anybody in my family I would have been either mocked by my older sister, who by the way used to beat my little brother whom I protected. I finally was able to stand her off physically at about age 7, she never attacked us again. But all my fears had to be held in. My mother and father always invalidated anything, any feeling, any fear, and emotion that I had all through life pretty much. I was trained to repress and the fear nearly ate me alive.

You see, with addiction, people who are not steeped in pain don’t get addicted.  Sure addicts like me usually say “I had no trauma in my childhood I had good parents”. I used to say it myself and mean it.  Why would I say that?  Because the TV programming showed me what trauma is and I did not relate to it.  Little did I know there is a different kind of child trauma that comes in stealth and in ignorance.  It comes from these sources, parents, education, our peers because we are trained to demoralize one another as an emotional survival skill, and the TV media.

But make no mistake, most people even into adulthood have no clue what emotional trauma really looks like.  How would they?  They didn’t teach us healthy emotions at school that’s for sure.  How do you speak to yourself?

Long story short, I was steeped in sin and misery most of my life.  I was a heroin addict, Cocaine Injector, Pot smoking, Prostitute, thief, Liar, Hopeful drug addict who not only prayed for help, I prayed in tongues for help during my relapse/prodigal walk.  For years on end.  Whaaat???

My History With Religion

I was born in 1959 making me 62 years old.  I was not raised in the church as they say.   However my mother was a Jehovah Witness and she used to speak often of the “New World”  It sounded to me like a myth at the time.  I didn’t put any stock in it.  I believed what was in front of me at the time.  Still I was a praying child from the very start of my life, and always have been.  Mom took us to church on holydays I mean holidays.

Church was no different than school to me.  Expect that there were no hard tests and bad grades given.  Today there is not one preacher who I can sit and listen to and agree with wholeheartedly.  Not on Youtube or mainstream or real life.  I can’t even agree 50% or 20%.   Sometimes they will say something true.

My foundation of religion is me reading the Bible on my own back from late 80s through late 90s.  I had all the books when they were “books”.  I had the Strong’s Exhaustive Concordance.  I had Lexicons, interlinear bible’s, every version in English and I read mainly the KJV and I read the Old Testament in the NIV & KJV.

Persecution from the Pulpit

I had one church and one pasture in life who I called my own at age thirty something.  When my loving preacher changed and started preaching Hell fire and condemnation rather than teaching with Love, the church split.  One pasture one way, and mine another way.  I learned so much from Him.  I don’t know what happened to him but I see no benefit to giving people the beat down over and over and over.

I am not saying don’t prepare for eternity and be aware that ye shall be judged for our treatment of others.  But condemnation from the pulpit repeatedly teaches mankind nothing but guilt and shame.  Of which I was already filled to the brim.  When I left that church, me and my tithes, that preacher for the first time spoke to me directly after years of being in his churches fairly unnoticed.

“They will kill you out there Sarah”, was his words to me. Well he was nearly right.  He was afraid.  He wanted me back I believe because of the tithes.  He never gave a shit about any of us it seems to me.  Or maybe he did, but he sure as hell could have at least acknowledge the women’s ministry me and another member had at that time to strippers and prostitutes’.

My Ministry to Strippers & Prostitutes

There were three of us woman born again in the church.  Women who really knew what it is to be changed by God Himself.  Born again.  Looking back I think perhaps my old preacher feared us, he did not understand or relate to us.

Seems to me there are variation of being born again.   And after we were born again God sent us out.    We witnessed to the dancers and hookers who needed to hear of God’s Love.  Those whom the preacher was unable to reach.  Once my girlfriend Lori asked the pastor to recognize our ministry as part of the church ministry.  He abruptly refused.  It wasn’t pretty enough.  It wasn’t dressed right.  It wasn’t packaged the way he would have it-apparently. Yes were were raw. But it was amazing times. We would walk into the dressing rooms at the strip clubs and there would sit one young woman or another primed for ministering, falling apart at the seems. This happened continually in that ministry. God moved more for those women than I have ever seen in ministry.

Threatened by My Friend in Ministry at Knife Point

I was even in choir.  Lori’s the other ex drug addict who I brought into the strip clubs with me to minister.  Oh she was so sweet.  She made up little baskets of jelly beans and chocolates on Easter for the dancers.  The strippers loved her!  She would minister to them individually and speak of how God saved & delivered her from hell life.  My stripper ministry was very very productive.   It was my first ministry.  When I relapsed into drug addiction it took years before I finally got pulled back out by God.

I received the Holy Spirit when I was thirty in a little Baptist church by the laying on of hands & prayer.  In my experience that’s how it happens.  So the automatic part of the infilling that happens when you ask Jesus in for help by desperation was my born again moment.  I was born again when I was 27.

At 27 my morality changed and I never returned into the deep sexual immorality that I came out of at that time. Even during my prodigal walk my morals remained upgraded.

Nevertheless my prodigal walk taught me not to judge others.  I forget that lesson from time to time.  Perhaps I am more stubborn than some.

I walked as prodigal for probably ten years with The Holy Spirit. God’s gifts are with repentance. If He didn’t take the Spirit back from me He won’t take it back. I think you would have to ask God to leave or something horrible like that.  I got arrested spent 60 days in county and finally ran, not walked to Alcoholics Anonymous where I finally-thank God! I became reprogrammed by God using therapy and the 12 steps.  It took seven years to change my thought patterns and neural pathways of my mind.  Meditation was a big part of that change by positive affirmations and daily 12 step meetings.  I learned how to express myself. How to quit keeping shame secrets of fear.  Say what I mean and mean what I say.

I built confidence by telling my testimony to hundreds at a time at speaker meetings.  I worked through those old childhood fears of public speaking & inferiority.  I realized I am a valuable and somewhat vulnerable child of God.  I do not speak to my self the way I used to-ever.

My worst sin was the way I treated myself for so long.  Some say people cannot change.  But given the right circumstances we can reprogram while God changes our heart.  To be the clay in His hands is worth every pain and cry.  But it takes work.  Change isn’t easy, we fear it sometimes.  It takes God and footwork both.  The work a man does to change who he is should become a way of life.  When any problem arises we say—“Out of the problem into the solution”.

The Truth Gospel

The true gospel is sharing what Jesus did for you.  Because that is the gospel that comes from the heart and is Truth and alive.

How in the hell does somebody attain a strippers ministry you might ask.  Well long story short–God provides it.  I was a stripper.  I was a prostitute drug addict.  God delivered me.  See my 5 part testimony.  I spent years living up to the title of “failure” who I believed I was for years.  I was a stripper for years.  After I was born again God put me behind a sewing machine making outfits for strippers.  This is still my work today except now I do it online.  No more setting up outfits in the dressing rooms.  The managers all knew me.  I had a foot in at strip clubs from Austin to San Antonio.  They knew I was now born again and they knew why I quit dancing.  I was a witness.  So I was allowed to bring Lori into the clubs with me.

Lori’s husband stood next to me in choir because I was an alto.  Staying on the right pitch with three harmonies Tenor, alto, soprano isn’t easy when your not a natural at it.  We had to be grouped together.  I was able to follow her husband’s voice.  Once his family at church invited me to dinner after.  My friend Lori was out sick that day.  Next thing I knew the crazy bitch was threatening me at knife point, knife point!  About stealing her husband because I met him and his family at an after church lunch.  There went that portion of that ministry.

Can you imagine?  A girl well over age 27 knocks on my door and puts a knife to my throat because I know and went to lunch with her in-laws.  She was sure I wanted to steal her husband.   No wonder the preacher didn’t want her representing the church in ministry.  She was bat shit crazy.  Her husband said “she has returned to her old behavior”.  What was she a murderer?  Well seems I have somebody else to forgive in word so my heart will follow.

Does this incident mean Lori wasn’t born again?  NO!  Make no mistake she became the clay in God’s hands just as I did.  It takes years to reprogram after being born again.  God changes our heart and our mind.  But old habits die hard, that’s why the 12 step recovery programs are so beneficial for born again believers.  They can become part of the reprogramming of behaviors.  Especially for drug addicts who need years to relearn and build new neuropathways in the brain.  There is a thing called the prodigal son walk.  If your a born again believer who has back slid horribly do not underestimate the lessons of Grace and Love, mercy, and forbearance of God that comes with a prodigal son walk.

The scariest scripture in the Bible I fulfilled

Paraphrased.   If a man is delivered of demons and is born again of The Spirit of God and yet returns as a dog to his vomit to his old ways then those demons look and say “his house is clean and swept & the door is open for the taking” that demon brings 6 other demons back with him to the house it once was vanquished from.  Put on the full armor of God.

I do not think the re-infestation of demons happened to me but I am a candidate because of my prodigal walk.  Testimony 5 parts Youtube.

Nevertheless God brought me back out after years of my turning my back on Him and His gracious gifts to me.

My Ministry to The Very Wicked The Prodigal Walk Ministry

One day perhaps I will go over the worst of the worst that I can remember.  A time filled with crooked cops, bribes, immorality, danger, insanity, great suffering, regret, remorse, self induced trauma, sick relationships, abusive boyfriends, The jumping from moving vehicles to get away from assailants. rape, more near death experience, kidnapping.   The giving of a testimony to the most evil on earth that nearly results in decapitation.  Men of evil don’t listen to preachers and nuns whom they have no part with.  But when a fellow sinner they know tells them God is real & loves them and what he did for them, it hits them right between the eyes. And they do not always react well toward that witness.

Perhaps God wanted me to know what having a sword to my neck for the testimony of Him would feel like.  Idk.  But this dangerous & insane man who announced to the who camp I was staying at that he would take my head that night changed his mind and heart.  He had every intention of doing so and I was going to allow it without even running.  Had I run he may have enjoyed it.  Something stopped his hand. It wasn’t me.  I wasn’t to die that day, not again. Not yet.  Some day I might write the horrors of the prodigal walk but for now it’s not to be.

God Gave Me a Third Ministry in Alcoholics Anonymous

As I said I spent years in AA reprogramming and gaining self worth.  I learned how to build self esteem and I learned my character defect patterns with the purpose of not repeating them.  Not everyone in AA takes rehabilitation so seriously as I did.  Nor do they take God as seriously as I do.   My own sister, a dysfunctional drug addict had all the same opportunities I did.  Yet she just could never change.  She couldn’t open up her heart, her true heart to God.  She never really opened the door to let God in.  I could be wrong.

I was rebuilt in AA and I left AA because from it I got what I needed.  I am not under AA rule to need the program for the rest of my days as so many in AA claim.  Some even call AA or ‘The Program’ their own Higher Power.  Big mistake.  The 12 step programs are full of lies at every turn.  They are also full of truth at many turns.   The program is free.  I owe AA nothing.

They chant “You have to give it away to keep it” this is true to a point, but for how long?  How long do I have to give it away?  I get to mark that timeline with my own choice.  If you don’t do the 12 step work you will not gain the self worth needed to be reprogrammed.  But if you think that its AA whom you are beholden to instead of God Himself then ye worship the creation over The Creator.  God is my sustenance not man.

A Scribe of God My Third Ministry

Jazweeh and I are the authors of my scribe ministry.  I did not plan to write a testimony but that’ s where this article ended up.  This is my end of days ministry.  Every footstep in my life has been for this moment in time.  I am not to judge others.  There is a whole multitude of Christians right now who have no clue of what is going on.  I can’t make anyone see Truth.  The creature/locust is on the heads and minds of most.  The supernatural is full bore on Earth.  Yet the strongholds of Satan are collapsing day by day.  God’s army is raised up and they are powerful.  Those who were once oppressed and down trodden are now the most skilled spiritual warriors on Earth.

They have come out of great tribulation.  Those who are born again do not usually stand up and tell the worst parts of their demonic walk through hell.  I left out the worst parts of the self inflicted part of my dangerous life.

Deliverance from demons is part of the walk with God.  Those who know what it’s like to be subservient to a demonic force of actions within that goes against their own heart know suffering.

“Why do I do that which I do not want to do?  Each time I make up my mind to do good evil is right there with me.  I then act according to evil in me that is not of me.   Who shall deliver me from this body of death? Praise be to Jesus The Christ who is all merciful forever and ever.”   Apostle Paul —Paraphrased from Pre Mandela effect skewed bible changes.

The Justified shall live by Faith

The chosen of God have already died once quite literally.   Or more.  They have stood under the knife, and under the sword at the neck.  God’s elect suffered so they could learn and be formed.  God’s elect would not trade that suffering for anything because it brought them to the knowledge of God’s great Love for us.

He who The Son sets free is free indeed. 

For easier reading and directions on becoming the clay in God’s hands go to my website https://paradiseforthehellbound.com where both my testimony and my book can be seen and read free.

Some Christians are expecting to be raptured before any great tribulation problems occur.  My question is this…if they/we are not raptured along with the young children will we be so pissed we curse God?  Or will we seek God even more fervently and sustain Hope for whatever His will is for us.  That is the wisdom.  “Thy will be done in my life”.  This isn’t easy to pray sometimes.

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No, we are not saved by the right works & works alone.  Granted you could say everything is works even prayer and a relationship with God are works.  But by works I mean “good deeds”.  It is our Faith and our condition of the heart toward God & man that God looks upon in us.  Our status in the realm of The Spirit after death however, depends on the works we have carried out while vulnerable, naive, weak, and human.  Courageous righteous acts carry alot of weight like giving your life so another can live.  Do we not reap what we sow?

All are given a measure of Faith, what you do with the measure will either kill faith off or make it blossom and grow into great courageous Faith.  ALL are given the down payment of faith yet people are as different as night and day in what they choose to do with that Faith.  Free will will not be taken from us at least in this life.  Hell won’t have much freedom going on.  If a man worships law, rules, regulations, and wants a contract with God stating his salvation in red blood print…that man may fit in better where free will doesn’t exist.

In The Spirit there is freedom from bondage.  Some people feel safer in bondage because of programming. They need little boxes with labels on them for comfort when The Holy Spirit is the Comforter…”saved by grace”, “saved by blood”, “saved by the bible”, “saved by the priest/preacher”, “saved by the words of the preacher”, “forgiven in the future”, “I never killed anybody”, “they are bad & I am good because look what they do”.  And on and on go the rationales to quell the fear of death go.

Blood is symbolic it is what Jesus did in death that freed us.  What?  Is there power in blood?  The Satanists seems to think so.  What did Jesus do in death?  A little thing that seems everyone on Youtube has forgotten or never learned.  “HE TOOK THE KEYS OF DEATH AND HELL FROM SATAN HIMSELF”.

That is why Jesus had to die to free us from SIN, DEATH, & the BONDAGE OF LAW.  And THAT is why we have power over death and hell because Jesus gives us the keys when we accept His gift for us.  This is the plan of Father. He sent His Son to do this.  Did Jesus bear all my sin?  Well that’s what they say but if He did then why is it I have to repent?  Why do I still feel guilt and shame when I do wrong against my own heart?  I question that, just saying its a contradiction.  Since the book lies (bible) we must have The Holy Spirit who comes in Jesus name and follow our still and quiet voice of the heart.

If we become reprobate due to smashing our own hearts voice over and over and over then we need deliverance by the laying on of hands as they practice in Pentecostal churches and full gospel churches.

Follow your heart and protect your heart for out of it come the well springs of life.  If you commit apostacy against your own heart it will make you sick.  God has given in us a guide that the beast works hard to silence.

The greatest spiritual and everlasting gifts are Love, Faith, & Hope these three are eternal, everlasting.  Pray for these if you pray.  Tongues will soon cease, prophecies will soon end but Love carries on into eternity.  Selfless Love is not a feeling though feelings do prompt the actions of Love.

Love is giving, charitable, kind, honest, forthright, and trustworthy, Love never fails.  There are many ways to give, even a word can be giving & charitable.

You will notice some people are incapable of a kind or encouraging word toward even their children.  They are under a spell of fear, their words of Love are bound up in a jagged bobbed wire fence wrapped around their own freedom to express Love toward others.  What are they afraid of?  Why can they not give a kind word?  Perhaps they are brainwashed to think kindness is weak and putrid.  Sad.

Please…don’t tell me you love me. “I love you” is a manipulation, not always, usually.  If a man says “I love you” its likely because he wants to create a reaction or its a manipulation to get what he wants or thinks he needs.  People who make Youtube videos and say “I love you” at the end, I greatly question as being un-authentic.  How can a man love people he has never known or seen?

Charity is Akin to Love

Love is straight from the heart.  But sometimes we give out of spiritual obligation.  There is nothing wrong with that.  But we mustn’t be ruled by our guilt. Its very important to work a thorough step four and five by writing down all fears and giving them to God, confessing them and asking Him to remove them.  And to write all guilt and shame down, process it emotionally with tears or screams, let it out.  Lest it rule your health and your heart. Everyone should work the 12 steps, everyone.  Without it you may not see the dysfunctional patterns of emotional behaviors that can so easily beset us.  We MUST know our patterns of knee jerk emotional reactions of blame, projection, fear of people, inability to trust God and so on.  We must examine ourselves at length and we need a road map of exercises to do so.  The 12 steps done with prayer and help from God can aid in the saving of one’s soul by finally seeing Truth and then seeking God in Truth with no walls of fear hindering prayer.

Self Awareness Vs. Self Deception

Processing the past emotional trauma can relieve panic attacks, anxiety, dysfunctional relationships, and all kinds of blame and rage.  The 12 steps promote humility and Truth and cut through false pride by the sharp sword of courageous Truth.  Take now the courage to know yourself, for this, my friend is the challenge of every man.  Not so you can condemn yourself as in past times of guilt and shame.  But rather we look deep within our own hearts and habits so we can change.  Check out my book “Paradise for the Hellbound” for more on this self knowledge.

Have you given your life that others may live? Have you stood for the down trodden and destitute?  Do you give to the beggar on the street?  How do you treat others?  Do you treat your neighbor as you want to be treated?

Of course we all have fallen short of these statutes of brotherly Love, of course.  We have forgiveness through Jesus our advocate, our redeemer, our deliverer, our healer, Him who opens the eyes of the blind, He who my soul Loves.

Works

Although we are not saved by works persay, still it is by our words and actions that we can achieve a wealth of gifts from God The Father that we carry into our next world.

Father wishes to impart upon mankind many spiritual gifts even mighty powers.  However with much power comes much responsibility.  If a man due to his choices & actions toward himself and others is not trust worthy or honorable then God cannot trust that man with great power.

Love (for humans) is an Action

By Love and conscientious view points of humility, truth, respect, and fair interactions with men does a man gain God’s trust.  How will Our Maker bestow upon us gifts of power if we cannot bridle our own tongue & behavior toward others?

Again great power in the hands of humans can be disastrous.  But the power God bestows in us now will often times be carried with us into our after life.

If a man is trust-worthy with a little he can then be trusted with alot.  Also to him whom much is given much is expected.  And that doesn’t mean pay back.  We cannot begin to pay God back, it is folly to think so.  For God’s gifts do not have stings attached as men’s do.   Nor can any action of ours compare to God’s might.   “Much is expected” means that we who have gifts are expected to use them honorably and not neglect them.

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List of Spiritual Gifts

What gifts?  Spiritual gifts are many varied powers that carnal man doesn’t understand.  Spiritual gifts involve abilities that are said to be impossible for humans.   Seers, Prophets, healers, intercessors of prayer gifts, gifts of languages, gifts of wisdom, knowledge, insight into certain topics, life giving gifts such as reanimation of the human body by the laying on of hands & prayer, dreams & visions, teachers, helpers, readers meaning those who read tea leaves, abstract shapes, eyes, foreheads, clouds, vibes, oras, there are new end times gifts at play now.  Gifts to see the supernatural mark of the beast on the foreheads of men(mankind).  Gifts of seeing gifts in others.  To see God’s mark on men.  To see Satan’s mark on men.  The ability to see into a man’s heart & soul, trips to hell, the grave, heaven, out of body experiences.  Communications gifts to hear what is in the mind of a man or to see it in his eyes or to read what he is thinking, to read faces, to see a black mouth and know a liar, telekinesis, telekinetics, every “tele” type gift listed by man.

Gifts are not evil just as guns are not evil in and of themselves.  It is how we use them that makes them evil, good, or indifferent.

Regardless of old testament condemnation of gifts being demonic, and granted some gifts are demonic.  However be not quick to judge a man by his gifts in that way.  Lest ye attribute the things of The Holy Spirit to Satan, God forbid.  Is there really an unforgivable sin?  Let’s hope not.  Did Saphira, and her husband really drop dead due to blasphemy of The Holy Spirit?  Or even worse did Peter or Paul or whoever it was REALLY have The Holy Spirit slaughter them for not giving certain monies?

I CALL BULLSHIT!  That’s not my God speaking that greed.  That is clearly a greed scripture to the manipulation of those in the church who fear that they would what?????? “ROB GOD”.  As if God wants the beasts money.

Know this…if you want to give, give to a real person who is in real need.  If you want to tithe go ahead, but not out  of guilt of some corrupt scripture of lies.  Or for a prosperity effect though, I have done that myself in hopes of a return. Do it for Love, to help.  Most pastors today are blind as ….the lost.  I would not give to any church at this point.  Give to the guy with the sign on the corner he is in need.  Give to those who ask.  Give when you can, and when you feel led.  Do not allow the fake script to manipulate you by guilt.  We cannot buy our way out of hell or punishment.  The Truth sets us free when we show God our whole heart, all of it.

Guns Are Not Evil

However they are used for evil.  And can be used for protecting the innocent from tyrannical forces as well.

Know this…gifts are usually from God however they can be used for both evil and good.  Granted, Satan has his bestowing of gifts as well.  But most likely they are the same range of gifts just used for evil instead of good.

Free-will is a gift that will not be revoked.  Satanists speak in tongues just as the intercessor (the woman of Rev. 12) does.  God appoints scribes.  One scribe type gift for example is this…During my writing while led by The Holy Spirit I strategically place a word in a sentence knowing the point I want to make yet searching for a word to fit.  I put a word in place that I DO NOT know the definition of.  I have heard the word but never bothered to know what it meant.   I look it up and it is the exact word the sentence required.

This supernatural event during writing has happened to me many times, many times.  I do not question it anymore and should not take it for granted.  God gives me the words and I learn as I go.  And of course scribes receive motivation to write and are given their topics usually at night while they sleep.  Scribes are naturals when it comes to writing and grab ideas from the air around them as well as receiving scrolls of knowledge during sleep.

Scribes of God have a romance with words and side with Truth, they Love the English language.  I reek with anxt when I see what is happening to our language and Bibles.  Men are getting the download of new heinous terminologies.  There are literally hundreds of new words in my own KJVB hard copy that I have NEVER HEARD OF yet have always been there according to history.  Yes the Mandela Effect, yes most people say “same as it ever was” as they call us who see changes as being under the strong delusion.

However there is one no two very good proofs that we are not the one’s who are deluded.  One- We are the minority.  And Two the changes in and of themselves are evil, debaucherous, and the works of a very dark voice.  Therefore we who see changes are not blind to evil.  Nor are we under the impression that its a good thing to term that which is evil as if it were good.

And so the fulfillment of the prophecy (and I paraphrase) “In the last days that which is evil shall be called good and that which is good shall be considered evil.”

Our Language is Under Attack

The language is being corrupted daily.  Our English language is under attack horribly.  In one day I watch You-tube as Christians all get the downloads of new word terms that are corrupt.   In one day they all parrot a new, same word.  It uncanny to watch.  A for instance?  “Nonsensical”,  ‘Holy Spirit” given in a sentence with a “The” no introductory announcement term…the “The” was in and for honor as a presentation of The Holy Spirit.

After a while people copy cat the terms so you don’t know who is downloaded by emf and who is just parroting terms as a status quo.  Those with low self worth parrot and speak as others do.  They copy because they fear they are bad and wrong and cannot be original or show their true heart lest people hate them (they fear).  This is what they have been taught by the beast all their lives. That what is in their heart and mind is bad and wrong.  IF you have read my articles you know that’s my pet-peave.  Forgive my repetition.

Scribes & Mandela Effect

Perhaps I see the on going supernatural changes to language and books (Mandela effect) because of the scribe gifts that are in me. I see the multitude of KJVB changes so clearly even as EYA the most proliferate scholar on Youtube of the on-going KJV Bible changes & the debauchery wrapped up in them.  Perhaps if not for the gift of scribe I too would be under the strong delusion as so many youtubers are.  Idnk.

I like to think that I see the changes to language and the holy bible because of the armor of God and other reasons regarding the Love of Truth that I see the KJVB changes when so few see.  Nevertheless they call us who see as being under the strong delusion, but we are the minority.

Anyone with a spiritual gift knows what its like to be alone.  Very few if any will relate to your gift.  NO one can understand your gift.  The best that your friends can do is say “we believe you but we do not understand it (or) that is YOUR truth”.  They are incapable of relating to your spiritual gifts and that is to be alone in some ways.

I suffer by my sight, the sufferings of Christ are to be surrounded by the blind and people who choose the lie over Truth.  To want so badly to make knowledge of Truth known to them but

“Fools, say I, do not know
Silence, like a cancer, grows
Hear my words that I might teach you
Take my arms that I might reach you”
But my words, like silent raindrops fell
And echoed in the wells, of silence

God’s chosen, His elect are the few.  But fear not for there will be a great multitude delivered out of the great tribulation.  Many many will repent and be saved during the disasters.  When the G.T. comes eyes WILL be opened people’s minds WILL be reached.

We Judge Not the Blind.  For those who are blind, to choose Truth over the lie Would be to Seemingly Lose Everything

Though the reasoning itself is to choose to believe the beast system at large for the sake of convenience & comfort.  Furthermore the Truth of the beast system is very scary.  So the lies sooth the blind masses.   While the beast poisons their mind, body, and soul in every way it can the victims of relentless abuse beg for more and serve the beast’s image.  What is the image of the beast?  I used to think its the TV and mind you in a big way the TV is the beast’s image.  However its more than just the TV.  The image of the beast is its reputation, its ora, its contra in the minds and heart of men.  The image of the beast is its overall presence in our world by tech, by programming, by ideals…and those who prefer the lie choose to respect, believe, praise, honor and worship the system in all its ways.  It can do not wrong in their eyes.

For to choose Truth they would gain their soul and lose their paradigm of lies that comfort them. As the bible used to read “they preferred the lie, therefore they were overtaken by a strong delusion, for they loved not the Truth”.  Jesus is Truth.  The Belt of Truth is our spiritual armor without it we could be vulnerable to serious deceptions.

Still I understand their choice of the lie.  To choose Truth often they would lose the things of this world that they hold dearly.  Example:  My doctor.  I asked him if he trusted big pharma.  He said “yes”.  Had he said no think of what he would have lost with that answer.  His world is wrapped up in the lie and he serves the beast directly.  He feeds his clients the poison the beast dolls out for profit.  For him to have said “no” to trusting big pharma would have painted him as a monster in his own eyes.  He would first have to have a way to process that emotionally  before, before, he could face it.  THIS my friend is why I promote the 12 steps.  It is a way to process hard truths by allowing yourself tears, screams, moans, guttural sounds, and a relationship with God that will reveal to you what is needed to live in Truth.

Emotional Constipation Kills

A man cannot believe that which he is unable to emotionally process.  NEVER, stifle tears, delay them if you must for a safe place but never stifle your own heart.  Let it rain until you are healed, let it rain my friend. God gave us tears for a reason and the beast has sewn in us emotional constipation. See recoveryfarmhouse.com and .net for ways to process emotions and deprogram from the beasts emotional constipation.

By desperation their hearts will finally shed its walls of emotional constipation and their minds will finally open to possibilities that they could not consider before their desperate state.